rambling some more....

Today I had my ballroom dance final. It was pretty fun, I did tango and swing and actually my partner is kinda the guy im dating. sorta. Im confused. Because he asked me out in december before break and we like hung out twice. we went present shopping and he took me to breakfast another time. And we've had coffee together after school a few times. and we text like everyday (but thats not exactly a relationship) But anyways the reason im confused is at least he used to say it was unofficial but that was because we are both really busy. but now i think he is more serious but we haven't really done anything and hes really sweet but we only ever really act like couple in ballroom. But i guess we were the cutest and best performance. i was really happy. and the other night he called me darling which i thought was cute. oh god im going all mushy... ew. but yeah it makes me really happy. but i am confused because i don't know if we are official now or what and i want us to hang out more and stuff.

Oh and today i had a meeting with my parents and the school counselor about colleges and stuff. so that was cool i got to here about all these other colleges i hadn't even considered, for marine biology of course. but now i have to research all of them and stuff. but im kinda excited.

today has been good. im happy.

New Music!

So i've been buying a lot of music lately. My newest albums are Phoenix's "Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix" and Vampire Weekend's "Contra".

They are both reallly fantastic!

I heart vampire weekend! (yes i wrote out heart because the html coding doesn't like the less than 3...) And i just discovered Phoenix (their song "1901" is on the cadillac commercial, but i hadn't seen that commercial until after my friend played it in our newspaper class)

Oh and yesterday i hung out with friends from middle school. See i went to this nerdy tiny middle school and often i'm just glad i am not there anymore because too much of the other people is intense and possibly damaging to social skills but every once in a while its nice to see them again. And i actually had more fun this time than i though i would so that was nice.

ahh old teachers

so this was posted by my old middle school teacher, actually the same one who the title of my blog comes from. She's awesome. basically she posted this because my facebook status was talking about kicking my sister's ex's ass because hes been bitching about her lately ans saying nasty things about all women in general. so this is what she said:

Katie and Colleen, can I just say that you are two of the most amazing young women it is my good fortune to know? Katie, you are strong, loyal, brilliant, grounded, talented and motivated. You will move mountains, and lead others to great things. Colleen, you are brilliant, unique, adventurous, out-of-the-box, non-conformist and highly creative. You will blaze a new trail and light up the world. And if anyone - ANYONE - has anything negative to say about either of you, please refer them to me. I will take great pleasure in setting them straight.

I love her and miss her as a teacher. It was a great confidence and happiness booster

rambling

Ugh school is tomorrow. I just wish weekends were longer so I could actually catch up on sleep, I actually am looking forward to school. It doesn't help though that on weekends your parents load you with stuff to do and you want to see people so homework doesn't get done until 11 on Sunday night.

Wow, I am not a typical teenage girl: I just complained about parents, school, sleep, and homework. I should add in some friend and boy drama and I could just bore you to death with my normal teenage girl-osity.

Speaking of -osities, have you read the Georgia Nicolson series? I re-discovered them on my book shelf. I love her.

Also on the topic of rediscovering I found the movie love and other disasters with Brittany Murphy. It's a really fantastic movie. Its a chick filck but oh well its still good. Didn't she die recently? I don't know I don't really pay attention to celebrities.

watch this movie she is fabulous and posh and Audrey Hepburn-esque:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lc6C4juTVg

last night

So last night I saw The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. Which is an incredibly sad movie. I literally cried for an hour. I'm not even kidding. Of course this was mostly due to stupid hormones you get from being a teenager AND being a girl. So I was basically an emotional wreck. And it wasn't just like tears falling down my face it was sobbing heavily. I wanted to go into the TV and scream at the people in the movie. Honestly I'm normally not this emotional. BUT HUMANS CAN BE SO HORRIBLE.

If you don't know the movie its about a boy in Germany in WWII and his dad is a high up SS officer who had been moved to a run a work camp. The boy can see it from his room and thinks its a funny farm where everyone wears striped pajamas. His parents tell him not to go in the back yard. But being a typical 8-year-old boy, he goes goes there anyways and finds a woods that lead to the work camp, he finds another boy his age in the camp and they become friends. Anyways I won't ruin the rest.

I have kinda lost faith in humanity. I am studying the Rwandan Genocide in Model U.N. right now too so this all combined with being a member of STAND is a lot to handle. I just don't understand how someone could kill another human. Sure they can tell themselves that the other person isn't human but isn't there some guilt still because you can't completely trick yourself. And how could the United Nations sit by and do basically nothing in Rwanda when it was created after WWII to prevent that from happening ever again!

Also people just don't seem to care about the world anymore. I feel like a lot of people don't listen to me or to other teenagers who are passionate about world issues. I mean in science yesterday I started talking about habitat for humanity's restore and how the money goes to help build homes for people and the guys in my class are like "I'm Katie, lets save Fish! hahahaha just shut up." And its frustrating because I sometimes forget that there are other people who actually care about what is going on in the world instead of just themselves.

I'm not saying you can't care about yourself, because I am a teenager and of course i can be self-centered sometimes, but at least I try to do things about the environment and genocide and all the other world issues. I met a guy who was like me in a lot of ways and I guess I liked him because he was so passionate about the world as well, but he lives in Grand Rapids and hasn't texted me back lately. Probably because he now has a girlfriend.

And i could probably rant some more but then people probably won't listen so I'll wrap it up. anyways my mom saw me crying and she reminded me that I have to focus on how much good there is in the world, and that there are people like me. And I'll be out of high school soon so i'll be able to make a difference in the world.

So if you are feeling like I do i hope it helps to here there is someone else who thinks like you. And even if you aren't remember all the beauty and good in this world.

comments!

Yay! I got comments! This makes me pretty happy. And one was from someone i didn't even know! By the way Nessa O. its ok it didn't freak me out, it was actually pretty cool. anyways thats all i have to go to work so ill post later!

blood

I cut my finger today in science.

It hurts a bunch now..... idk why I don't think it is infected. And its not like weird chemicals were on the glass because the beaker just had water.

And if you are the friend who probably wants to say sorry again, honestly it isn't your fault. I should have checked for broken glass before cleaning where glass had just broken.

anyways around the cut sometimes feels a bit tingly. And it hurts, that could also have something to do with typing and poking it a bunch to see if there was glass in it.

but yeah i realized how weird i am because of this. I was sucking the blood off my finger and everyone like freaked out and called me weird and a vampire. (Which was even funnier since I watched twilight last night hahaha) But honestly, blood tastes good. Its all metallic-y and yeah. Though the weirder thing was that when I was a kid I would pick my scabs to lick the blood.

Oh and today it just wouldn't stop bleeding, I was like what the heck! The student helper person was like are you a hemophiliac? And I couldn't help but wonder if i actually am (and that i am since if you go by the literal meaning it means love blood and i kinda do... :P) I don't know blood is just fascinating to me.

twilight

i am watching twilight with my parents

hahahahaha

i am very protective over you

i don't have the strength to stay away from you anymore

here we go again....

My mom was just talking to her "partner" (aka boyfriend) on the phone. when she hung up she turned to me and said, "Why do I have to keep reinventing myself every man I'm with?" She was crying. I was thinking "oh goodness another meltdown", though it always hurts to see her so sad. She leans on me so much. I sometimes feel like the mother. And honestly I don't think she is reinventing herself this time since what she is "reinventing" herself to be, is something she has talked about for at least 5 years. Also she says this periodically. She doesn't seem as happy with him as she has been but then again all relationships go through rough patches. And when he is here she is kinda happy or really happy. So I don't know. Maybe she just can't handle being able to do what she wants full time.

pretty storms

On the last day of school before break a friend and I went to UMMA's The Lens of Impressionism: Photography and Painting Along the Normandy Coast. It was stunning. I found a new favourite painter: Gustave Courbet. He had some beautiful paintings of stormy seas it was just lovely. This one (Titled: La Vague or The Wave)was fantastic though the picture does not nearly do it enough justice, the colour and depth are much richer when face to face with it.

Another pretty one was by Édouard Manet, titled: The Beach at Berck



http://www.umma.umich.edu/view/past/2009-lens.html

hi

So I've never made a blog before but I saw my friend's blog and I kind of like it a lot. You know who you are! :) I follow her so you probably can find her. So this will probably random things. The name comes from a line in a poem my teacher wrote about me in 8th grade. It was all about my aspirations to become a marine biologist.

OMG so my step dad is watching science channel and this guy can make Smarties (the canadian/british ones) invisible! but only one colour at a time.

sorry i just thought that was really cool.

yeah so i'll probably post again later