STRESS

Ok so the entire year people have asked me in wonder how I am not dying of stress. Well I've finally reached that point.

I am sooooo busy what is wrong with me! I love my work and I love my after school activities and I love my classes but they are starting to be too much to handle. But I can't drop any of them! On top of that I don't seem to be able to go to bed early enough, which results in much sleeping in and coming to my first classes late. SUMMER COME SOON! But I already know I am in for a busy summer. And being so busy is terrible because I really want to do this great article for my newspaper but I don't have time!

hmmm maybe I'll cover Model UN.....

I wonder if I can get kids on the record saying they are there to blow it off or there to be serious and regard "the other side" as people blowing off the class. I wonder if I can get them saying that they come high and drunk to class....... hmmm this might actually be good.

update!

OK so I think I am over this whole Nick thing and I think I'm over Garrett and pretty much any guy you could name right now. Which is nice, for me of course. Though I'm just kinda like OK... now what! Guys are not everything though. And I am glad I am remembering that. Now if I just have the guts to break off what ever this thing is with Garrett...

lalalala I'm going to France and will speak en français avec les beaux mecs :)

(if you don't speak french that means im speaking in french with pretty guys)

But I'm really nervous because I am going to stay with a family and they are supposed to have contacted me by now and haven't! Ahhh!!

Oh well I'm excited!

Nick...

Im talking to Nick again, cute environmentalist from MUN, literally right now on facebook. he had broken up with his girlfriend and is like i want to get back even though i just broke up with her. I really want to scream at him why not me??

instead all i can say is im sorry

ahh hes all like now i have to get her back... this is just making me sad i want to ask why!!!

to fill you in about him, i met him in the fall, he wasn't in my committee but he was a friend of a girl i met in mine. and he was adorable and she gave him my number and we started texting and i found out (without him knowing anything about me) how similar we are. it was ridiculous. and so we were like completely crushing on each other even though he lived far away and he's all like its destiny! and im like i wish this would work but its long distance and he seemed to agree. and then about a week after a month of texting each other cute things he stops and i check on facebook. 2 days after his last "destiny" text he was listed as in a relationship with an old girlfriend and they wrote on each others walls disgustingly sweet messages.

in fact one of the reasons i started liking garrett was because i compared them a bit....

i miss him

here he is talking about whats-her-name:

She's one of those people you meet and you don't want them to slip through your hands

I just can't help but wish it was me he was talking about.

damn i'm so cliché

lalalalala

OK so I would like to apologize to any bloggers whose blogs I read because for some reason I cannot comment on any including my own. If it is a comment moderation thing I'd like to apologize if the comments were sent multiple times. CORRECTION: I can comment now!

ok so today Kevin - who is basically an adult hall monitor but he's cool - was talking about how I like spencer I was like wow you are clearly wrong and it took much convincing. then he was like ok well I have to go harass your boyfriend and I was like say hi to Garrett for me. Even though I am not sure I consider him my boyfriend, but he found out about that.... yup

Ugh I am still all confused about the whole Garrett thing. Well we might hang Friday so maybe that'll change. I think I'm going to ask him where he thinks this relationship is going.

Maybe not. I'm fine with letting it play out.

ACTs

WOOOO ACTs tomorrow! So very excited!!!

Ugh, standardized testing is just so stupid. You have no idea what I'm like by looking at a test score! Luckily, I really want to go to College of the Atlantic and they are all hippie-like and ooohhhh we don't need your test scores.

On to what I really want to talk about.

So I've been kinda going out with this boy, Garrett and I really liked him in December and we kinda hung out but we've never really made anything official (though maybe now he thinks it is) but I don't know I'm kind of losing interest but sometimes I'm not. UGH make up your mind, Katie! And on the Italy trip I spent time with Max again and I at least thought I miss being with him and I really wanted to get together but I don't know if its just because we were spending time together again. And he still hasn't really had a girlfriend other than me and I would feel so bad breaking up with him again.

Hahaha everyone thinks I like Spencer - part of it I think was me trying to hide the whole Max thing. Even my mom commented, "do you like spencer?" and I was like HELL NO. I apparently can't be friends with a guy without someone thinking I am madly in love with them. Ok, I admit I did talk about him a lot, but he does so many ridiculous things.

Then there is the whole Michael thing. I liked him in November and I guess he's been in love with me all year or something and I can't help thinking that I'd be going out with him right now if he had asked me out. And I just feel bad because now it's so obvious and I hate disappointing people.

Well like they say on SO many standardized test prep things - go to bed early. so that's what I'll do.

Goodnight :)

im back

OK so I officially fail at blogging, over 1 month of a post hiatus - I apologize if anyone was disappointed. Though I doubt anyone was.

Why did i not post?
Basically, i was in Italy for the last week of February and it was AMAZING and GORGEOUS. <3
before that hmm i had A LOT of homework and was trying to not go on the computer and sidetrack myself.

umm ms. sugar & spice, you'll understand this: its not spencer it is possibly max so you were slightly off

some people are soooo stupid though - this girl when we were on a ferry asked, "how does the boat float with all these cars on it?" what? really? you are that dense? i don't understand how people get to high school when they are that stupid.

oh i found this blog called guilty planet and everyone says it sounds sooo much like me. its wonderful, she talks about not eating fish and stuff.

well i have to do latin homework and recover from switching my time zone